Another Smack / More Lessons

*sigh* Well, I’m not going to get upset about it this time (at least not as upset as I got a few days ago), but I overslept *again*. And this time it was the dumbest possible mistake…I was doing great yesterday, feeling good and not getting tired until 30-45 minutes before naptime, and sleeping well, and getting up with the timer with no trouble at all. So I blithely laid down at 2:00 (I was tired by then; really groggy, which I hadn’t been since the drive into work yesterday morning–more on that later) — but I figured the timer would wake me and I didn’t want to bother with the other alarm, since I’d have to reset it again at 6:00. I did lay out the things I wanted to do when I woke up, and overall felt quite on top of things.

So what happened? It was hot last night, and I rolled over in my sleep and rolled onto the timer, shutting it off. Sheesh.

I only slept three hours — woke up at 5:00 sharp — which is a good sign that in spite of my screwups I’m making progress adjusting. I got up and did a really heavy Pilates routine followed by a shower, which enabled me to get a few minutes’ sleep at my 6:00 nap, which is good. (Oversleeping is bad; oversleeping and missing naps because of it is worse.) But from now on, dammit, BACKUP ALARMS AT 2 AND 6, even if it doesn’t feel like I’ll need it!! I don’t want any more mistakes; I’m anxious to get past the tiredness and start enjoying this more. I did mention that I really loathe being tired, right?

Oh, one more thing I should mention…I’m noticing that the 40-minute commute to and from work is a big challenge; I get very groggy having to drive that long, even if I’m wide awake when I start. Long drives are not something I had to deal with before, and I don’t recall having read about anybody else’s experience with them; but it was easier today than yesterday, so perhaps it’ll stop being a problem once I’m adjusted.

…I did find myself thinking, in the shower, that perhaps I can see what the attraction of “core sleep” is; I felt great after that 3 hour snooze, and I could totally see doing it on a weekend or something as a treat, if it could be managed so it didn’t screw up the naps on either side of it. (For instance, if I’d pushed my 2:00 to 3:00 and slept until 6:00, maybe.) But I still think that any and all tinkering with the schedule should be avoided for at least a month (perhaps I should say “a good month”, as in, until after one’s had a whole month with no problems), so for now my job is just to stay on the freaking schedule for longer than a day and a half at a time! Grr!

-PD