Okay, ready? Breathe. And go.

Getting ready to upgrade Wordpress in hopes that it fixes the d4mn “Internal Server Error” that everybody’s sick of. (The error, if you don’t know, doesn’t mean that whatever you just did didn’t work. In fact, it seems to always have worked, in spite of the big error page. I would get, not just an error, but a nonsensical error. That’s what I get for choosing to name the site what I did.)

Anyway, if things break on Sunday night, that’s why. Sorry in advance! ;)

In other news, it’s time for me to knuckle down and report that things aren’t going so well here, sleep-wise. I expect that to change, but as it stands, the last several weeks have been each sloppier than the last. This is the second weekend in a row that I’ve overslept both days, and on Friday night I slept eight hours. That marks the second time in a month that I’ve slept eight hours in one night. I do much better during the week, but not as well as I could and should: During most days, one of the following happens: a) I fall asleep up to an hour early at night; b) I sleep up to an hour too long in the morning, or c) I miss a nap. I don’t feel much effect from it; I’m not tired all the time, but I am tired about once a day, like really tired. That’s not good enough for me though; I’m supposed to be giving this a good go for posterity n’ shit, and it’s just not acceptable (to me anyway) for me to fail from lack of willpower.

To be frankly honest, the problem isn’t based in sleep. I do, for those of you blessedly ignorant up till now, have a bit of a, er, major depressive disorder thingy. Had it since I was very young; maybe wiring difficulties, or, to flatter me, sane-girl-in-an-insane-world complex. Anyway, hard work, willpower and, admittedly, poverty, have kept me drug-free for ten years now, and I like it better this way — except that it’s not always a smooth ride. It’s emphatically not just sleep that I’ve been screwing up lately, in other words. The only thing I actually seem to be keeping my grip on is Tai Chi…but that’s neither here nor there. Suffice to say, I know what’s up, and it’ll be over eventually, probably soon. I’m almost 100% positive that one my Happy Fatty Acid or whatever gets properly regulated again, things will straighten out. No worries.

So no more of that needs to be inflicted on you, but at least with that much I can add that, if posting gets a bit irregular for a little while, I’m not dead. Or a ghost, like in Serial Experiments Lain.

That’s my absolute favorite weird anime, though. If you haven’t tried it, I highly recommend. Here’s why I love it, from the Wikipedia article:

Serial Experiments Lain deals directly with the definition of Reality, which makes its complex plot difficult to summarize.^[4] The story is primarily based on the assumption that everything flows from human thought, memory, and consciousness.^[5][6] Therefore, events on screen can be considered hallucinations of Lain, of other protagonists, or of Lain fabricating the hallucinations of others.^[6] Story misdirection is central to the plotline;^[7] even the offscreen voices or narrations’ information cannot be considered truthful.^[8] The series consists of a cross-reflection of philosophical themes instead of the traditional linear events depiction: episodes are called “layers“.

All that and it’s absolutely beautiful, too.

Anyway, enough digression, pleasant though it was. I’ll get my crap together, though when I do my posting level may actually go down, I think, as there are a lot of other things I should be doing more of as well. (Like working on the book, if I’m still going to write one.) Things will even out in the end, have no fear. The Blogger Gods are strong here. ;)

Okay, off to upgrade. Cross your fingers! Your good intentions don’t give a crap about physics, and will have no difficulty at all travelling back in time to influence how this upgrade is about to go!